I can see the pain living in your eyes.
And I know how hard you try.
You deserve to have so much more.
I can feel your heart and i sympathize.
And I'll never criticize.
All you've ever meant to my life.

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye

You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of.
Losing you is painful to me

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but good-bye

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry.
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say good-bye.

hahahahaha[:
a rather sad song.
when a r/s is gng to end,
there's no other way but to say goodbye.
since this is the way,
why do we still have to start it out?
& end up hurtin ourselves?
&&&
the most funny thing is,
this whole cycle would just repeat when u found a new love.
hahahhahaha[[:

afterall-
it's the biggest mistake to fall in love,
& get tgt.
but I'll nvr regret of committin this mistakes.
even though the cycle sometime would just kill ones.

[p.s: nthg is better than what u gave me:D]

hohohoho:OO
just what?
i didn't went to work again!
lalala-

ytd work was alright,
been slackin all the way!
hahahahaha[[[:
Aunty Adeline bought me a damn ex necklace out of the sudden!
i'm so shocked la when i recieve.
she asked me to go to this jewel shop to see somethin,
so just went w her lo.
then she bring this necklace & ask me nice nt,
i'm like 'yea- haihao la!'
then she jitao 'okay- i'll have this.'
after wrappin she say 'von- tke this as your birthday present!'
i'm like wtf?
i knw her for abt 1 or 2 wk?
then she gave me this necklace.
i'm fuckin shock cann,
then she keep like 'wow- how i wish my son can knw u!'
$&*^%*&%$#@@%#%
for god sake!
i don't want to accept a necklace then become her son's gf!
AHHHH:SSSS
SO FUCKIN SCARY LAA THIS AUNTY!
HOWHOWHOWHOW?!!!

then after work went town to find my girls,
Net & Jus.
went shoppin at Esprit:D
bought a top & blusher!
hahahaha[:
here are some pic:D
dont laugh alright

Normal us:D

BOO~~ GUYS!

FUCK YOU RIGHT BACK-

if we were like this will you still be our friend?

look at this pic when you're down:D

funny right-
i knw.

sometime i really wonder,
will anyone love a person which is soo damn fugly?
will they even dare to talk to that person in the first place?
i don't think so-
everyone really mind how a person look,
no one would want to hav a fugly partner.
everyone wants to have the most beautiful & handsome partner.
this is everyone dream.
but what other the less fortunate one?
they'll always be the one who is alway been laugh at,
& bullied.
ha-
this is how realistic this world is.
BOO BOO BOO-

anyway,
i've give myself a 1mth time frame to slim down,
mke my tummy ultra flat & everywhrr fats free!
hohohoohoh:D
then go pierce my belly button & nape!
:DDDD
i love love love it mann!
SLIM DOWN SLIM DOWN!
no mre fastfood frm tml onwards!
hehehehehehehehe!!
LALALALALAALA-
DON'T STOP ME ALRIGHT:D

&&&&&
p.s i don't understand what u tryin to tell me?
mk it clear-

i'm ultra duper bored nw!
didn't went out,
cos u knw mom is ultra emo again.
so can't leave her alone at home.
she cried & cried & cried-
yeaa-
so god bless me huh!

frm morning she went out to cantonment,
till she reached home she is crying-.-
for god sake!
i'm so damn worried at home can.
it's like she leave ther at abt 2plus 3,
she reached home at abt 4plus only.
goodness-
guess what she took the wrong train back,
so she wonder ard orchard after that then she come back.
it's really like
$^^&#^#%^^*^%$@!#@!($#($#(!(2
nvr even call & tell me!

tml have to work again.
GRRRRRR :OO
but workin w Nana, Audrey & Suria aunty.!
they're the best ppl ard there man-
plus they teach me lots of things.
the most important thing they tell me is,
'You're still young don't ever get yourself tied down by 1 man,
you shd hav many many guy friends. Enjoy life!'
i find it rather true,
in fact is damn real ah.
i can see the real true example in real life my mom.
sigh:/

seems like i've lose more hope & confident in gettin into a r/s.
everyone seems to fail in this,
includin me myself.
i'm so sick of fallin in love & end up cryin in the end.
everything just repeat in every r/s.
like what they tell me,
why must i tied down to 1 guy & mke myself miserable,
when i'm still young.
i shd really enjoy my life & flirt ard,
instead of just stick to 1.
it's really a wrong move to get into a r/s nw.
but still,
deep in me i still really hope to experience a real & true r/s.
i guess this really need a long period of time to find the right one.

right nw,
i need to fixed my feelin & put everythin back on track again.
nw i still like him,
but yet nt pinnin to much of hope.
cos i hav alr knw what's the endin would be like alr.
hahahhahaahaaa[[[:
i hav had once hav him,
& nw i won't hold him back-
i'll set him free:D
p.s: will you be happy if i set u free?

skipped work today :D
didn't call & informed.
but i guess they'll nvr find out so HACK!
this mornin when mom keep wakin me up,
i thought i was dreamin,
so i'm like ignorin the pushin.
then suddenly think she call until damn chek up,
she PUSH me damn hard until i fall off my bed.
like wtf man-.-
then she at ther laugh,
didn't even bother to pull me up.
is really like wtf man.
i'm like @$^I&%^$&%^^$%^$#$!!
so irritated-

get my ass back on my lovely bed,
& i lied to her say i'm nt workin today:DDD
hahahhahahahahahha[[[[[:
sleep back till 2plus,
evan called-.-
& she like lalala-in to me,
seriously i'm nt fully awake so i only catch the main pt she's sayin
x:
hohohohoho:OOO
i knw i'm pig!

later gng town to meet net & jus!
to SHOPSHOPSHOP:DDD
heheheheheehee!
but need to dig some money frm mom first x:

i feel so sleepy again!
back to my beauty sleep!
how nice it would be every mon is like this~~
HAHAHAHAHAA[[:
hope no one check out my counter today!

HELLO:DD
i'm back to blog!
sorry to mke u guys tired,
pls RE-LINK me.
love u guys soo much[:

my life recently only involve workin, sleepin & playin.
kinda lifeless-
everything just seems to be repeatin wk after wk.
really need to find something new to do.
results are comin out soon,
god bless me:D

something happen to mommy a few days back,
she haven been sleepin & eatin well.
god-
she even ignore me at times.
shit big times ah!!
]]]]]]]]]]:
hope this storm would be over soon!

birthday is comin soon,
but i'm nt really in a mood for the comin 17th birthday.
i don't wanna grow any older anymore.
17 sound so old.
seems like it's time for me to grow up & be mature.
&&&&&&
means i've to mke more decision on my own.
SIGH-
so stressed up w all this shits.
but still i hope to be 18[:
so that i'm able to learn BIKE!!
hahahahahahha:DDDD
it's my soo soo long dream alr man!!

okayokay!
i'll stop my craps man-
tml is monday again!
sigh:/
stupid shit have to work again!
ahhh-
boring life!
BYEBYE:D